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Grr

I’m becoming so frustrated with myself lately. Why can I not be an adult?

Why do I become emotionally, mentally & physically drained with even the smallest tasks?

Why can’t I work like every other adult & not have constant break downs? 

Why can’t I seem to get my life together?

I’m so sick of not being able to take core of myself, I want to be able to work & function like an adult. I have a court hearing coming up for disability & while I’m semi excited at the thought of maybe being able to contribute to my own life financially; I find myself becoming more & more frustrated that I even had to go down this road to begin with.

Too much stuff

Being a BPD housewife, I have found myself focusing on organization for the last couple months. I feel like the house is cluttered & that contributes to why it’s always a mess (that and the fact that when I’m in my down moods I can’t keep up on cleaning). So, I just finished organizing my dresser & hope to really get a hang on the situation this week. Maybe it’ll lift me out of the killer crap mood I’ve been in for 3 weeks.

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